chokky

indians

2009-01-21T07:02:00.000-08:00

what the fuck, omg i am so fucking pissed. indians omg indians!!!!! fucked up people. okay okay not all but fuck, overall. not many are nice most are fucking rude, fucked up annoying ugly fuckers

chee bye la, i am so fucking pissed.

just now in the ward while i was almost going to end work, i was nice enough to ask this fucking indian EN for a patients chart, i was kind enough because i wanted to help to feed so she need not feed later. then chee bye fucker was fucking cheebyingly rude!!!

then the conversation goes as follows

me " sorry(being nice because interuptting her work), can i have bed __ chart"

cheebye fucker ignores me and talk to another SN sitting at the counter

then i thought she didnt wanna reply me so i wanted to take the chart from the pile of folders she put on the table.

cheebye fucker " EH CAN WAIT OR NOT" in an annoying fucked up voice and tone.

bloody fucker u didnt even bother to reply me at first right. i was fucking pissed by then.

then i stood in front of the table and waited. somemore she was already 2 more bed folders away then it reaches the bed i needed. so i stood there and wait la.

then the cheebye fucker said again " WHAT U DOING HERE" IN A FUCKING PISSED OFF TONE

then i was still trying to be nice " waiting for the pink folder?"

CHEEBYE FUCKTARD replied " EH U CANNOT WAIT ISIT U GO OVER THERE(POINTING TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE CUBICLE CHASING ME AWAY) AND WAIT CAN OR NOT I GIVE U LATER!!!"""

CHEEBYE LA!!!!!!!

she didnt even bother giving it to me. she just lay her fucking big fat ass on the chair and sat there the entire time

cheeebye!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will never forget you the rest of my fucking life. if i ever get into the management team and need to fire people! trust me u willl be the first one to be blacklisted and fired!!!!! cheeeeeeeebyeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

i am gonna ignore her for the rest of my posting and give her face! bloody fucker

2008-11-18T05:37:00.000-08:00

its a damn fruitful day today. i am so happy these couple of days too. lol , it has been fillled recently with alot of squeezing, pushing shouting grabbing snatching during the crocs sale with classmates first and my mum again. lol then to mph to buy loads and tonnes of book that i lovr. whooo plus the catch of the day. i went to jb with lynnie today lol

lol it my first time gng overseas with lynnie though its only a day. we watched madagascar today at cathay citysquare. its a damn nice show with a nice plot. it not too childish also it is just right for me and lynnie. u can tell it rather a good movie cuz lynnie didnt sleep for the entire movie. i think she didint even wink lol. didint manage to buy anything there. except for some foodstuff and chewing gum and smiley face bubble gum i bought for my friends. and of course dvds. lol though i only bought two. lol.

a damn funny thing happened at the checkpoint on our way back. lol lynnie and i bought two packs of chewing gum each. lol we got caught la. lol and they confiscated it. actually the very nice and cute policeman wanna let us off. but this other annoying policeman who was so kapo had to interefer then he make the guy confiscate our chewing gum. then the nice pliceman only took one of the box instead of both. damn nice right. then he ask us to follow him to this room to discard. then the anoyying policeman wanted to take down our passport number. but the nice policeman just ask us to go. lol so nice right. no wonder the horrible policeman is only given a job to stand at the door lol. cuz he is useless and horrible.

then after leaving the place we took a bus to kranji. then we couldnt decide on taking a train or a cab. but we decided to take a train. then we went into the station. then after sitting down, both of us damn tired already then cannot tahan. we stood up and went out of the mrt station to take a cab lol. waste money rght. lol tap in then out without even taking the train. i only use it electricity to tap my card and stand on his platform have to pay money . lol

whatever it is we took a cab home in the end. and here i am home sweet home. lol

tml would be inviting nadiah and faey over to my hse for a nice lil swim so exciting la. lol i cant wait. then in the night gonna go clubbing tgt with ex classmates in celebration of ada's birthday. lol

but i feel so lazy now to even think of tml . lol should i go? i have ftt the day afteer somemore... i am like in a diliema. argh should i should i not.

whatever it is. lets just see how it goes. toodles!

2008-10-25T00:15:00.000-07:00

ive been excercising these few days, i feel a great damn sense of achievement. yayness to me.

goodness gracious me. lol

toodles

2008-10-20T07:04:00.000-07:00

its officially the second week of school. its totally bad, first week had been interesting because we had a few outings here and there to bring up the level of fun.

thank god i have nadiah and faey. otherwise i will be out of nursing by now. this sem's lecturers are all totally boring and unfun( if there is such a word.) unlike the previous sem. i miss kumari and ibrahim like mad crazy frog. argh.

oh and i have joined some dance class, mtv dance. like totally unbelievable la. lol dont know where and since when i could ever find time to sign up such a class. lol i even intend to join amore like this wed. lol i need to get fit. so fit i wanna be skinny i shall go look for a thinspiration. maybe it shall be mary kate olsen or maybe nicole richie .i shall visit some pro anorexic site to get some tips.

lol imma kidding i gonna loose it well and healthily.

this afternoon our classmates were discussing where to go this december, and we manage to come to a point of discussion that we will go malaysua, regardingwhich part i have no idea cuz now the ideas are all chapalak. lol some wants tioman some wants genting some wants kl. lol but i choose genting, firstly ive nv been there. and kl cuz i wanna shop a little. i need some shopping therapy. also i wanna visit shu hui's kampong. so cool ive never been to such a place, it wlll be a eye opening moment for me. lol but she says her kampong has no more chickens to catch . lol probably cuz of the bird flu all birds that carry such a disease have been wiped out from kampong areas. lol. imma go there and learn how to ride a motocycle to. they dont need licience there. lol

imma going to take my btt on thurs also 23 oct. hope i would pass. please everyone pray for me that i would pass.

alright ive nth more to say about my bloody boring life, till then toodles

2008-10-10T07:59:00.000-07:00

met up with lynnie today, had much catching up to do like sharing stories. lol. i miss her so much.

nadiah darling dont be too sad, i would miss u so much when u are not with us. blame the fucked up school!, lets all gang up and kill them literally.

faey! hello my friend.

whatever it is. i cant wait to see u guys so soon!!

toodles babes

2008-10-09T11:01:00.000-07:00

oh yeah i am back home finally from a 2 day 2 night journey. lol

day 1 i had a chalet with bffs' and hasnah. lol totally last minute. we book the chalet only last friday. cool shit or what! lol started off the day by meeting nadiah at the entrance of costa sands downtown. went to collect the key and off to check in. faey was there late. lol. our plans were ruined lol. at first we wanted to go to wild wild wet, in the end it was closed, so we changed our plans to fly kite, but what the fuck! i started to rain in the morning, though it did stop in the afternoon, but the shop which sold the kite, didnt sell them anymore! what the fuck la! lol

whatever, in the end we left for bugis early we went to eat at our favourite hangout food place, tong seng. they serve the best chicken rice ive ever eaten. fucking nice. somemore its halal, go on everyone bring all your malay friends there. lol. in order to kill time while waiting for hasnah and amirah, we went to arab street to walk around. went into this particular shop which sells only bears. they have like really cool and nice bears. they are all damn cute. they sells bears of all different sizes, they have like human bear sizes damn cool but is a few thousand dollars. they sel like collectors bear too. which ranges from 200 of the size of your fingers to humongous ones. we also bought balloons they are like super nice colours pearl white, pearl pale green. and pearl pale purple.we bought a kite form the same shop too, for our future use when we go ktie flying cuz its only like $1.50 cheap or what lol.

in the end we went to amirah's grill to wait for them. ordered fruit punch, and what happened was they served me a sour(spoiled) one. was like damn turned off, went to change for another glass, luckily the waitress was damn nice otherwise i would be like damn pissed, cuz the other time we went there there was this filipino waitress who was fucking annoying and rude. also took picture with our fav shisha guy who claimed to be a japanese but we are damn sure he isint, weird fellow, but anyway he is nice.

at last they reached, lol ordered drinks cakes and shisha. talk talk take a few pics and off we went to find khee rui at his workplace at clarke quey cuz we had nothing better to do. walk around clarke quey with our fucking disgusting attire, shirt slippers and shorts. we were super outstanding cuz everyone else dressed so nicely. lol. took a stroll over to clinic. nice ambience, decided to visit the place again another time cuz we werent dress appropiately. it damn cool there, they hav drinks dispense from drips, sofas made from hospital beds, wheelchairs used as chairs, surgical light as their lighting they even have the screenings that used in hospitals while doctors are screening patients for privacy. lol cool shit or what

in the end we decided to head back to the chalet, mia left us, only the four of us left, luckily we went back in time before cheers closed. we bought our necessities like chips, cup noodles , bread , tuna and drinks. ate cup noodles, nadiah was our sadnwhich artist. lol she made alot of tuna bread for us. lol but i bet she love being one . lol

whatever the case is, we were happy singaporeans. lol. after eating we were like ahving our miniature personalised salons lol. nadiah brought curler hasnah brought make up. we were dolling each other up. it was so much fun had my hair curled by nadiah, and i curled nadiah's hair back in return. she have so much hair. damn it so tempted to pull some out from her and implant them in my head. lol . took super uber long time to curl nadiah's hair super thick and alot. lol. faey had make up done by hasnah. lol (ps. nadiah: inside joke. lol!!)

whatever it is after our dolling up session was over we took turns to bathes. lol freshen up abit. lol after which took many pictures. lol. then we headed out for a short stroll around downtown. then back to our nest. watched movies. we were like crazy poeple singing along the songs. lol . played uno stacko and blew balloons. played volleyball with the balloons we blew, lol then we slept, but i couldnt sleep in the end me and nadiah sneaked out. lol, toured the area.

managed to sleep ltr when hasnah woke up and massaged my leg. it was cramp the entire night till she remove the bubbles in my leg. lol. didnt know our legs had bubbles in them lol.

woke up around 930 to get ready to check out. so dumb la their check out time is so freaking early. after check out we had breakfast at macs. all had 2 dolalrs meal with ice milo. lol

after which we left downtown faey headed home to put her stuff down and i headed to ndiah's place to put down some stuff and get ready for our exciting afternoon. lol. while waiting for faey to come we watched honey and step up. damn wow-ed by their dance. lol

then wewaited for like faey to call but she didnt somemore her phone was off, so we got all worried and wanted to go to the market to find her, cuz before she was coming she brought her grandma to the market behind nadiah's house. at last it was late already so we left the house. to our horror we saw her sitting at the staircase outside nadiah's house, lol she claimed to reach like super long ago. but her hp batt was flat so she couldnt reach us. also she ringed and knocked the door a million time but we didnt ans, cuz we were listening to music in nadiah's room with all doors and windows closed. lol. poor her.
sorry faey. our bad

we headed to downtown again afterwhich to go to wild wild wet since we had free tickets. lol had vip entrance cuz nadiah work there. lol we need not que and had aircon while waiting to go in. lol. packed our stuff into the locker there and headed for the games lol. nadiah and faey started off the scary game without me cuz i didnt dare to go in it.

the fun part was the end before we left we headed to the tsunami pool where there are artificial waves created . we took folats along with us in case we drown lol. manage to make nadiah swim to the 1.8 mark with folat of course, it was like pulling her guts out, for her to do that. played ball with random people in the pool while awaiting the waves to start. when the waves started we were like crazy people trying to move forward to the 1.8 mark where the waves are bigger but we kept being wash away to the shallow side by the wavess. we were like crazy people kicking to move forward, we even pulled other peoples float to move forward. lol i even had random people reaching out to pull me to the deeper side. lol

afterwhich we left cuz i had something on at night so i needed to reach home before 6. before that we headed to white sand to have some food cuz we were like hungry beavers. lol had cavana. the food there is damn nice. lol. then i had to rush back to get ready for the night.

met annie after she collected her phone from simei. then we left to meet paul and cheryl at vivo, the mussel man. then feebie came. after eating went to the open area at vivo to slack and take photos killing time before we go to st james.

it was ladies night so admission was free. drinks were supposedly free too but they only open one counter for the free drinks and it was jam packed with people and a long que . so we got our drinks from a different bar counter but we had to pay. st james drinks are so damn ex.

dance after that for quite a long time on the dancefloor damn hot. we were like sardines packed in a can. we could barely move. more like vibrating only. lol managed to squeeze on the raised platform. but there was this guys that was like so annoying. he was like dancing with humongous actions and he kept rubbing his arse on my tigh wth la. we were all damn pissed with him, so we left the platform to rest for a bit, cuz we were damn shagged cuz of the heat and crowd. rest abit and squeeze back in. lol. then we went up to the upper deck for another drink and get some rest from the extreme crowd. while we were upstairs there was like people on drugs there. they were like crazy, we couldnt figure who was whose boyfriends cuz there were all mixed up and dancing and grinding kissing making out with one another.

left the place when it closed, all super hungry and tired. lol actually decided to go fro supper at macs downtown east but i was totally shagged from two days 2 night of hardcore so i left for home first, while the rest waited for the mrt to start fucntioning again before heading back to pasir ris.

whatever it is i have enough of typing i literally type my entire time of 2 days 2 night here. so i leave it with some pictures.

2008-10-06T20:18:00.000-07:00

OHH DAMN, the timetable is so out, but fuck. it sucks, no more late nights sleeping. fucking hell. i start schoool at 8 everyday. and i mean everyday form monday to friday!. and two days i end at 6. like WHAT THE FUCK!

argh i cant wait to meet my bffs'.

toodles:)

2008-10-06T10:52:00.000-07:00

IM ANNOYED, WHEN THE FUCK IS THE BLOODY TIMETABLE COMING OUT. OH BABY FUCKER COME TO MAMA.

IMMA SUFFERING FROM INSOMNIA, fuck. i think imma too excited for tml i cant sleep, i need to sleep cuz i realise i have like no more time to sleep for 2 consequtive days if i do not sleep now. fuck. i shall pray had to god. pls let me sleep. i know i shldnt be so crude, amen.

but fuck imma pissed

2008-10-06T09:44:00.000-07:00

counting down the mins to a fun day out with bffs', okay imma too excited, actual fact its a few more hours, okay maybe even more, a dozen hours. lol i cant wait.

we planned our activities already. cant wait to carry them out. whoo~. i shldnt be so happy. cuz the more i grin the more wrinkles i will have.

i shall take many pictures tml. i shall go charge all my gears up. lol

i cant wait for chicken rice and gourmet food.

alcohol, fags, here i come! wait for me. ill treat u good tml!

jason mraz-i'm yours imma so adicted to it

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I'm yours

Scooch on over closer, dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours

so please don't, please don't, please don't,
there's no need to complicate,
Cause our time is short
This, this, this is our fate,
I'm yours

2008-10-03T07:12:00.000-07:00
first things first, i wanna hack faey. lol

ok,ive been choking my lungs with very horrible stuff recently. the frequent shisha trips with crazy frogs.

faey love ******. she proclaims her love for it and craves for it everytime we meet and talk.just mention that thing she goes crazy.

many pictures but i have none of them sadly. i am just too poor to afford any luxury. fuck

i am so glad that lynnie is reuturning home to singapore next monday, damn it i cant wait. how i wish can go hug the crap out of her when she touches down. lol

nadiah faey and i are planning a chalet on tuesday. whooo so excited!!

update again soon i am speechless lost for words:) too excited

2008-09-19T07:17:00.000-07:00
its the end of my 2 weeks mental health nursing, thank god its over. though i kinda miss some of the patients there, but oh wells. something kinda sad happen in the ward today.

a patient of mine found a pair of slippers on the floor and picked it up, but she couldnt find the actual owner of the slippers at first, so she ended up leaving the slipper on the corridoor. then this md(mental deficiency) patient saw it, and she started tearing apart the slippers, but she is aggressive so we couldnt do anything to stop her. so the pair of slipper was seriously torn apart into many pieces.dunno how the hell she found that much of strength to do so either.

then my patient who found the slipper saw it and slowly bend down to pick it up, feeling very guilty cuz she couldnt find the rightful owner in time to return so this incident wouldnt happen, but as she stood up, holding the slippers in her hand tightly, suddenly tears started to fill her eyes. omg we were there to witness the incident, it was damn touching... so i started to comfort her, cuz i was the only one who knew how to speak hokkien.omg la, she was really super sad.

damn it, it was the last 15 mins that incident had to happen before our shift ends. also its the last day of the posting. and she was dearly loved by all the students. everyone was like damn it when we left the dorm..

i super duper miss her la, nadiah and i were like talking non stop about her when we were walking out of the hospital.

argh i shall stop here, ive got no more to say..

toodles:)

*tap ur tighs * tap your tighs *clap *clap * say ur name * say ur name. ill definitely miss this sentence..

2008-09-16T07:15:00.000-07:00
firstly congratulations to me! yay i passed all my modules, though the results aint that promising at least i passed.

secondly fuck, cuz i just collected from phone from repair cuz nearly all the buttons were spoilt, but in the end, when i recieved my phone back, its fucking spoilts again, though this time not many buttons, but fuck, i just repair shld it be like working, omg irritating.

thridly i got so much to tell about IMH. argh so much to rant about the place, so much anxiety, stress and depressing matters. lol i hate that place, so wanna quickly run out of the place on my last day there. everyday the only thing i think about is whats the times now, is it time to go back. that what at the back of my mind every single day there. terrible.

next week would be polyclinic attachments, boring, how i wish to turn the damn clock so i could skip all this unpleasent memories.lol

these past two weeks. i repeat the same routine every single day, when i say repeat i really mean it. as in regardless i am working morning or afternoon. my daily routine would be. waking up last minute leaving me only 45 mins to get ready the most. leaving the house, mummy or dad fetch to work, work for 8 hours, eat once during the work time, after which end work, go home, bathe and sleep. oh how interesting. goodnesss gracious

argh i shall end my uninteresting post here.

toodles

2008-09-05T10:09:00.000-07:00
ive tried, but failed. its okay, ill move on.

2008-08-31T10:03:00.000-07:00
i am gonna repeat again! ive got a job yaynesss. thanks to fiona ive got one! haha. i wouldnt be bored at home anymore, i would be living my life to the fullest by making some money haha. but ill be selfish it would all be shared with myself. one and only me. lol

starting on tuesday. god bless me!.

faey and nadiah have started to fast. its 1st septembet the start of their fasting day. dont wallop ur food to fast when they anouced over the radio that u can start eating.

last week of hols before my attachment starts. damn how i wish i wont, totally not looking forward to it, it bores me to even think about it. lol

gah what more can i say. none, i need something interesting! so.. ill end

toodles:)

2008-08-28T09:08:00.000-07:00
something amazing, but not too much whoo-ha about. is that, nadiah my lovely other half junkie is back into cyber world!. welcome home babe! lol.

no worries my leg is recovering. yay to me! lol. but damn it, it recovered too late fater i am back from bangkok, imagine those torturing times walking like an entire day under the blazing sun with an injured ankle. its fucked up, but at least i enjoyed my time there. cant wait to go there with lynnie soon! planning in progress haha! but at least it ongoing. lol

just a remimderto all sec 4/4 peeps that chalet is on! on 3 sept 2008! remember to come! and bring lots of fun and alchohal! lets all get drunk with red bull and cranberry juice( inside joke).

okay enough talking, i'm leaving!

toodles:)

2008-08-27T08:22:00.000-07:00
i am back from bangkok!

2008-08-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

been a very hectic week and very suay week. lol

hectic because its core exam subject week and ive been studying for each paper just the day efore, boys its fucking hectic, lol. suay cuz i had the heart to bring my small dog out for a day out, but turn out, i am fucking injured, i sprained my ankle, but this time, the sprain is so bad till today it haven recovered, its been 4 days but the swell hasnt subside and also the pain is still unbearable. omg seen both english and chinese doctor english doctor only gave me muscle relaxants and painkillers but it didnt work so i went to the chinese one. he tui my leg like message?! haha i think so, lol

on a funny note. the sinseh wrapped my foot till it look like a tangerine. u know the styrofoam thing that protects the fruits. lol my foot looks like that i shld get a picture of it. haha hold on>

omg u know my leg is so fucking pain during the course of his treatment. he like used a tool to rub hard against my orh che(blue black) omg fucking pain. he cracked my foot it yelp in horror and pain. omg la torturous i have another follow up with him the day after tml.he also gave me medication to take but the problem is his capsule is so fucking big, i cant even swallow a normal sized pill, much more a bigger capsule. omg.. omg... i am so petrified of that place it give me shivers. omg its a fucking bad expiriencce, how i wish i didnt sprain my leg. i'm in fucking pain!

because of the pain caused me alot of other problems like i will not be able to meet up with lynnie, my bff! argh pissed. she gonna leave for china when i am back in sg. damn it and she will be there for like 2 months! goddamn long time for two bff to not meet. damn fucking sad.

also my trip to bangkok will not be confirmed because of my ankle hope it gets better tml after the chinese treatment. so i can go!> i wanna go shopping la !ever since my taiwan trip i haven been shopping much due to sch and projects. argh. i need a fucking break!

okok so 3 papers down, left with 2 more hope i can do well though its last minute.

i am gonna leave for bangkok if alls well on friday after my pharmaco paper, ive got a plane to catch lol. till then..

toodles:) much love from me!

2008-08-15T06:47:00.000-07:00
been watching the olympics badminton, omg china are so ... irritating. not to be mean or a critic. who the hell play badminton and have fans or fellow chinarians screaming away. fuck sia how to focus damn it.

first of all it was a bad idea to hold it there already. haha curretnly i am watching the semi finals double for the womens' . korean vs china, though the china are on the verge of winning i am still hoping silently in singapore that korean would go to finals.

the china go like :" SHA ! SHA! SHA! ".(which is kill kill kill in english translation. sounds like they are reAdy for war) non stop for like each hit the china player hits the shuttlecock so annoying if i am the korean player i would chase them all out or shout at the to shut up. how to focus la!!!!! i am like getting angry for them instead of them getting angry, though i know their coach is really furious from the shots ive seen from the tv. lol whats the bloody umpire doing la. he is not doing his job of getting then to shut up, cuz i bet he is one of them. damnit.

okok enough of the blooody game its getting on my nerves watching it, i shall switch to watching other games. hope korean win stilll. hahahhahahahahahaha omg fucking funny they are playing the song 'long de chuan ren' as the interval song hahahaha if i ask lynnie to watch now she will laugh till she die. hahaha. hahahahahahah i shall convert it so other would undertsnad. long de chuan ren. dragon something something haha i dunno how to translate. lol. its a very funny song haha...

its so funny to have olympics in china hahaha cuz of all the funny songs they play during intervals haha.

okok downn 2 papers for my exams both seriously screw up but i hope i pass at least. 3 more to go. got to study hard for those 3. terrible papers all the core subjects. dam it. i so wanna sleep through my exams then when i wake up, it would be over haha. rubbish again! ohwells i'm done here back to watching thhe olympics

toodles guys:)

2008-08-13T06:32:00.001-07:00

studied with F.A.T today. not bad did quite alot in fact, a much conductive time compared to yesterday. lol

exams starts tml, first paper would be adult nursing. hopes i can do well. i wanna get an A , haha dream on to me, but oh well is good to set goals to achieve. haha

gonna study with them again after exam tml at kallang, its super empty there. not even a soul found walking found on the centre flooor tthe entire afternoon. k i was kidding, but seriously its empty.

alrights wish me luck!

toodles:)

2008-08-12T10:06:00.000-07:00
PIMPLES. ohmigosh i hate them. speaking of which i think they love planting themselves on my face. how i wish to be the greatest creater/inventer of the year where i am make all pimples disappear, ill banish them from the world. i'm doing good for the entire population. right?! lol whoo~ everyone would love me then.

imagine the entire world being perfect, haha, weird. apart from that everyone would probably look the same. lol

ohhlalas i love kimora i so wanna be her adopted child. she hot, fabulous and rich. who doesnt want to be her secret son/daughter . she is like full of blings haha i love her stuff. lol

gossip with the monkeys just now haha. its fun gossiping,though i feel guilty at times, but i cant help it, its part and parcel of my life haha. its a girl's job, we are paid to do so . haha kidding. but seriously who doesnt. lol.

i so addicted to ali lohan's all the way around. addictive haha i probably heard it like 12335423452435 times today haha. exargerating? NO!. HAHA, kidding at least 30 times though. i think faey and nadiah heard it till they can memorize it already. lol

part of the song(chorus)

I had to go all the way around
I had to go all the way around
Just to figure out how to get back where I started from
I had to search higher and low
I had to search everywhere to know
that everything i wanted was what i had
(had to go) all the way around just to get back where i started from

ok i'm done,
toodles

2008-08-11T03:20:00.000-07:00

whoo exams are round the corner. gosh so stress started studying today. wow i am so goddamn proud of myself. opps i should stop swearing. lol

argh how i yearn to have you. all my high hopes have fuckishly drain down the longkang haha. its all over. wont be seeing him anymore. fullstop i have to put it to an end if i dont wanna start it. coward fuck i am, but who care its over. ill try to put it all behind me.

whoo on a happy note. i am 18 i am almost free of doing anything at last. except the fact i cant watch r21 movies, but who cares everyone watching porn at home, haha kidding:) i can practically ruin my life with the many other things an 18 can do hahaa.

had a wonderful lil party yes, haha maybe i shldnt even consider it a party more of a surprise they really got me this time, totally unexpected. haha did stupid things after the mini party haha. went mustafa to walk around haha and also had dinner at some steamboat. all agreed we eaten more then we paid yesterday. haha that a whole load of food. but hack, i'm happy:)

on an even lighter note. gonna get a credit card soon. whoo so damn excited i can shop like a real shopaholic already, haha also I AM GONNA REGISTER FOR MY DRIVING TML!!!!!!!!!THE HIT OF THE MONTH!! HAHA

ok i am a lil overly excited on that part i bet i cant sleep tonight haha. nah.. i am lying i bet i will sleep like a babi.

thanks to all for the many birthday wishes, but my wish didnt really come true. hack its just a small miniature part of my other life so why let it affect me, haha.

ok enough of rubbishing. haha i have writeen many words that i have awfully created in the expense of my wonderful brain power. whoo i am powderfull haha. powerpuff girls. power ranger what next powerpouper?haha okok stop all my nonsense i shld realy get back to studying. i really need to haha okay bye for now. ill come back soon!

speaking as if anyone reading my entries i doubt haha but who cares ill speak to the computer then haha. ohwells

toodles

2008-07-27T10:42:00.001-07:00
a thousand words to describe my thoughts
still, i'm pondering whether should i or should i not.

argh i'm pissed

what should i do! goddamnit!

2008-07-26T01:29:00.000-07:00
its been a long time every since i blogged. lifes been rather stale the couple of weeks. so there aint much to talk about.

another 2 weeks it will be the end of the semester, but it aint that simple, after which he would not be in sch anymore, cuz he is gonna have his prcp and all. so there is 2 weeks left for me to buck up and gain enough courage to tell him. but i doubt i will. i dont have the courage to do so and to tell him, argh. i'm, repeating, gosh i dont noe what am i saying, it feels terrible, on the outside i still have the mood to joke about this and all but, .... horrible.

argh, seriously i dont noe what to do! gosh !!!someone help me!!.

2008-06-26T07:04:00.000-07:00
lifes' boring nth to talk abt recently sch have already started for abt a week since the hols. great hols but argh its a bad feeling returning to sch. haha.

just got to noe this week practical exam is next monday so dead. i haven even got enough practice. at least hope i would pass. theory paper is already over. its wasnt so bad. rather easy. furthermore there is bio exam next week too damn it.

cant wait for the next fAT meeting which is gonna be held next friday haha. had one just yesterday. funny la we ate at two diff places cuz the food at the first place was bad. maybe we havent met for a week. saliva was all dried up yesterday. hahah talked like there is no tommorow. haha havent talk that much for a long time.

my two big dogg are a little sick have been vomiting and having diarrhoea. hope they would recover soon.

alright i am don here shall come back again when i have time.

i want new games. i shall hurry go ask faey to come online soon!

till then,
toodles

2008-06-17T01:11:00.000-07:00
yes yes!! i am back ! whoo~ taiwan was fun indeed. did loads of shopping. yay!/ at least i bought enough to not worry for the next month lol.

cousin bought loads of bottoms while i bought loads of tops. haha. i so lazy to load pictures in tw cuz non of them resembles taiwan so probably all would think its just another sopt in sg. haha so i shant load them.

how i wish to go back to taiwan again soon! but this time tgt with f.a.t . cant wait for the dayy! omg . we shall shop till we drop! haha. anyway food in taiwan is horrible dont noe why pple say the food there is extremly cheap and nice. but to me its fucking ex and horrible. at least now i am proud of sg living up to its name of food paradise. lol

taiwan's weather is perfect not too hot and not too cold , apart from the few passing showers. furthermore it aint so humid there. at least when its hot i wouldnt even perspire. i hate the weather back home. eeeks it horrible.

bought gifts for most of my pals. cant wait to meet them and pass them their prezzies.

so i guess i shall stop here

i cant wait for lynnie to come back to sg. i think she is still in bangkok. hurry come back okay!. i wanna fish and meet u!!

toodles

2008-06-09T09:01:00.000-07:00
ill be leaving for taiwan soon. in less then 8 hours. aint very looking forward to this trip. but hope it will be a fruitful one.

i hole i can get lots of shopping done there espiscially wth those dirt cheap bags and clothes and shoes. whooo i am going there with a luggage but i hope i can come back with 3 or maybe more. lol. aint i greedy but who cares. i love to be greedy. whohooo~

got to get many thing for frens too if i can find them. a ring and bags for ah na leng, also bags and clthes for my dearest grp leader ah ting. whose my online spreeing buddy where we find sites to spree hahah.

max and buddy . this time oscar would be taken care by a doggy walker. hope max and buddy wouldnt miss me too much. haha. i would buy loads of things for them if i can find any.

shaffa is married. congrats. i am happy for you!. hope to carry ur lil baby soon!. unforgetable wedding according to faey. cuz there is this huge who-ha abt the bike show haha. sadly i didnt get to steal one of those cupcakes.

hope ill be able to meet ah xin in taiwan. i would be like the happiest kid on earth. haha imagine me getting all retarded and crazy holding many shopping bags running after him. after seeing him from afar and telling him how much i love him give him a hug and a kiss and not forgetting a picture. haha wow amzaing isint it?!

argh exam are like starting when sch reopenes. damn it i would be spending a week in taiwan leaving me another week to study. which i doubt cuz it seems i am like fully packs the week i return. damn i wouldnt be able to study. at least hope i pass though. but i shall be greedy again and hope for an A. who wouldnt haha.

i cant wait to get my ass back in sg on the 16th! everyone! wait for me i would be home soon enough for u to even notice i am back! whohooo~

hope my dad eyes would not give him any problem anymore too. and hope everyone help me pray. nth would happen to me and my family in taiwan also back in sg.

gtg peeps. i am gonansleep before i cant wake up tml, i mean ltr in the morning.

tooodlesss! wait for me pple!

2008-06-03T23:12:00.000-07:00
dad camera memory card is spoilt. boring all pictures are gone. suppose to send cousin some picture but in the end. its all gone. japan trip and fam gathering, they are all gone.

its faey's birthday today!. HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAEY! nadiah and i love you damn alot.!

anyways. oscar having some skin problem recently. two of them are healing but there one on his left foot thaat seems worse not sure if i shld bring him to the doctors again. but it gonna cost a bomb been bringing him to the doctors' recently bill have been rising. wait for a miricle then hope eveyrone prays that his leg would be fine. saving me alot of money.

max and buddy have been well too. except a lil jealous cuz they cant see oscar. lol but i love them more. whohoo..

its the last week of sc. but more precise. theres another 2 days of schh and it will officially close for 2 weeks. during that break . i will most likely be in taiwan. lol.

haven been bloggin recently due to the business. cuz sch's closing and lecturers are chasing for work and projects and more projects. gosh i am gonna faint for project cuz we have so much projects due after the break. we have to rush our project during the holiday. damn la. i am so lazy to go back to sch for any meeting. seriously if i have the choice i seriously dont want any during the break. damn!!!.

anyway i wanna sleep too lazy to type much. so...

toooodles!

new york minute

2008-05-23T07:36:00.000-07:00

suddenly i started to crave to watch new york minute, but i cant find on any website that i have that serves that movie. i'm sad.

btw, it end of the week. gosh imma so excited for the weekends. whoo~ tml would my cousin would be a month old. cute. most likely gonna visit her. at the same time. gonna for a family chalet tml with my dad's side. dont know if it would be fun or not. my uncle even planned a schedule for tml. but i cant remember. wow so thoughtful

dad was released from work early, he claim's that this week is family week that why he was let off early. suprisingly i was early for my 10 o'clock classes this week. thanks to dad.

imma counting to monday i seriously cant wait. i bet lynnie cant wait to!! we're on a fishing trip after school. cant wait to get my ass out of class on monday. whoo~

gonna go k on sunday with usuals. another day to await cause we haven been singing for a long time. thus we planned this mini outing for a memory refresh on the fun times we have all the time! haha

oscar's fine he is getting a lil better each day. he learned to pee and poo on the newspaper without stepping on it. haha before that he didnt realise pee pee and pooo pooo stinks haha. i guess he have realised it, but aint it a lil too late?! but hack, at least his a lil smarter now.

another thing, i cant wait for m room to be ready. left half a door to paint still. after which i can get my new furnitures . then i can move in to my lil new room. oscar gonna sleep with me too. rather excited. hopes his clean at that time though . i dont wanna wake up the next morning covers with saliva and pee and poo. i would faint. lol. seriously it stinks.

i need a weekend getaway.so im gonna pack for tml lol

toodles

2008-05-20T07:52:00.000-07:00
caught made of honour today. it is a damn great movie. cuz lynnie didnt fall asleeep. lol enjoyed the movie. haha except collin is fugly lol. he disgust me and lynnie.

cheated by the school today. cuz i thought it would be a long day in the end, i went to sch in the wee hours in the morning at 9 ended at 11 , worse of all i had break till 4. omg! nearly died boring to the limit.

thus clever us went for lunch at causeway. saw a few actors at kfc happily chatting lol. faey got damn excited over pornsak and zhou chu ming haha. also it was damn crowded at kfc which we intended to eat at first. we we made our way down to burger king in the end. had mushroom swiss meal. yum yum.

met lynnie after which where we caught the movie.

i have been thinking of fishing the whole of today. i cant wait for next monday. i am so counting down and looking forward to next monday another 5 days . omg omg . how i wish i could turn the clock and adjust time.

singapore's weather is killing. i cant survive without aircon. i will die thus i hope the ozone layer closes soon. like send someone up there to sew it back. at least polar bears wouldnt be swimming and sleeping in waters all day long. haha

2008-05-19T08:31:00.000-07:00
oscar's getting from bad to worst. he is so naughty now. uncontrolable. he bites everything he sees even fingers hand feet and clothes. everything!. guesss his teething now thats y hope he wouldnt do that after his teeth are all fully grown. secondly he hates me to carry him nowadays i am damn sad. hope he likes it soon too. hahah if he doesnt want me to carry him. i shall throw him away. horrible shit.

anyway woke up today by lynnie's call. thus planned to go prawning. lol we had potatoe luck. as what zainal says. in malay it means like no luck. we practically catched no balls and prawns hahaha. not even a simgle one for 2 hours. thus we decided to leave and keep the hours for future use when it less crowded and when the stingy owner isnt arnd. cuz he didnt top up any prawns and no one was catching any prawns. equal the pond doesnt hav any prawns lol. so we left . and we headed to pasir ris pond. we bought 1 half hr each at the hehe pond lol. zainal says its called hehe pond cuz they were drunk when they were thinking of the name thus gng hehehehe . then they anmed it hehe pond. inside there were seabass . its a type of fish. using a rod we had to catch the fish lol. damn cool but i am so suay . according to lynnie cuz i ate fish this morning thats why the fishes arent nibbling on my delicious bait. lol

anyway zainal caught a fish at last after looosing 7 fishes right in front of him. cuz everytime he rails the fishes to the side of the pond ready to bring it up. the line would snap. till the very last minute when the uncle was gng to chase us then he caught his very first fish. sadly lynnie and me didnt catch any. but lynnie brought home zainals fish cuz he has too mnay at home. i didnt wanna bring it home cuz it was still alive and i dont wanna carry it arnd whitesands. lol

also there is this pond at pasir ris pond where we were looking at just now. they catch fishes like longkang fish. haah damn fast and easy. so we plan to go there next monday. after lynnie's and my sch we will go fishing. whohooooo i am so excited. i wanna bring home my fish and show everyone!. whohooooo i am going to catch 10 fishes!!!!!!watch me in action next monday.

last week hasnt been a very good week. grandad was hospitalized. then on the very same day my dad eys gave problem. luckily in all they have recovered. my grandad fully recovered and his is like back to his active self. but dad eye's is still a little on the shaky side. thus i pray that he would recover soon too.

anyway family decided to go to taiwan during the june hols. but depending on dad's eyes prolly we will wait for doctor permission. cuz of the high pressure on the flight. so will see how. hope dad eyes are seriously fine and does not give him any problems anymore.

tml sch's starting again! i am s not looking forward. schs damn boring haha. but i cant wait to see faey and nadiah tml!! whooo~~~ and also not forgeting ronald haha.

okok i have nth more to say other then i saw a damn fucking pretty cute handsome lovable extremly nice cat today at erricsion pet farm. its damn nice its breed is chinchilia or something like that. fucking nice. unlike a persian cat where its fucking ugly where its face is flat and dirty looking. thats all i have to say.

tooddllleessss!:)

2008-05-16T09:08:00.000-07:00
had night classes today. lol funny. most in my class thought there is elective today. but in the end.... there isint so. i had like 5 hours break in btwn furthermore everyone had plans of their own i was like hur hur. lol sad la. hasnah and grace askedme to join them for a movie though but in the end i went to eat sakae with nana leng annie and nana sis. whooo so hungry at first in the end damn full. but crazy nana wasnt full at all. worse of all she dunno how to eat more. omg la funny

anyway my lil puppy has a name already! lol it the confirmed one!. fluffy oscar hahaha can call either one it will respond to you! lol. it has grown alot every since last sunday. like at leasthalf a head bigger. it also becomed damn naughty. ultra naughty. lol. but sadly its sleeping on my desk now beside my lappy. lol its cute still thhough. i cant wait for fiona to buy a female then ours can mate. lol we came up with a plan already! hahaha. intending to carry out during nana birthday hahaha.

nana teach me how to play sims today. it was boring hahaha. only see them make love and have sex all day long and eat and kiss and make babies. lol morale of the game.. give birth to multiples. hahaha

gonna paint my room tml to complete it cuz it has been left stale for the longest period of time like 2 months hahaha. so gonna finish it tml so i can move in tgt with oscar.seriously i am damn sad i cant sleep with max still. lol

till then!

toooddddlllllleeeesssss

2008-05-12T01:55:00.000-07:00
ho ho i am suppose to be in sch but i skipped lecture. its the first day of schol but i have already started o skip lecture. gosh.

whoo i bought a new puppy yesterdy. lol he is a shih tzu. damn cute. his like sleeoing in my arms now. so i am kinda typing with one hand. lol. its a he. so i decided to name him oscar. or probably till i find a nicer name for him. cuz i cant think of any names. i first wanted to name him brandy but after calling it for awhile it sounded like buddy. i scared next time they will mix up their name. lol.

but still i love max the most still. i am only afraid that max would be jealous next time or maybe in the soon coming, cuz the lil puppy will sleep with me from now on. but i pray to god that max would still know that i lvoe him the most. gosh. i need to organise my time very well now cuz now i have to share my love equally amoung 3 dogs. i am so afraid that one might be jealousof one another thus pls lord. help me pass the msg to them and tell them max and buddy comes first before this new puppy. that i always love them more then oscar.

seriosly this new lil puppy is damn adorale i bet when he grow older he would be the cutest shih tzu. lol i amm planning to buy a dog carrier for him when i can bring him shopping. also a pram to push hima around like a baby and clothes. lol. my main motive to buy a small dog this time cuzz i wanna pamper im with accesories that i cant buy for max and buddy whenever i see this pretty stuff in a shop. i am so tempted to buy them. but only sadly to know that i cant cuz my dogs couldnt fit them. thus this lil puppy came along, other then showing him some love i am gonna pamper him with many stuff that max and buddy couldnt wear or use. but i still emphasize i love them more!. lol

gonna go shopping for the stuff soon. when fiona can make it cuzz she wanna come along,.

i wanna a girl puppy so i can buy girly prety stuff for her. but its sad ive got a he instead. so i dont really care. i am still gonna make him wear girl stuff hahaha. make him an aqua. what to do otherwise he cant wear prett stuff. maybe ill consider buying a few manly stuff for him haha. but only a few not many.lol.

i will take picture of him soon and post on my blog for everyone to see but for now maybe not cuzz he is sleeping . lol he has been screaming the entire night. so i think let him rest for a lil while first. lol then ill disturb him again.

so when i am ready i shall post agagin with pictures this time. so till then.

toodles!

2008-05-09T19:27:00.000-07:00
whooo~~~ i sat on an ambulance yesterday!!! ho ho. lol. to send a patient back to her home. lol cute. but getting a ride on an ambulance isnt great at all. it gives me a headache. seriously the ride was so jerky and bumpy and jammy. hahaha i cant think of words to describe it. lol i only noe after i got off the ambulance. me and another staff nurse was so dizzy and headachy. lol.

but overall it was an great experience i dont noe when the next time i can sit on an ambulance again. lol anyway. attachments are over. hoooorrrrraaayyyy for me!! i am so happy. seriously it has been a torture over the past 4 weeks. i cant wait to get my ass back to school and see nadiah nearly everyday again!. omg seriously when i got to see her the other day. i can say i nearly went bersark. i was like screaming haha.

no kk for me ever again!. i didnt like it there. i has been a bad experience for me. to tell the truth. i think no one enjoyed it there. except for the obs ward. otehr then that it was a total toture

i am so hungry i havent eaten since last afternoon cuz i fell asleep after reaching home from work. and slept till this morning. i am famished i need food. so i an gonna find some food now!!

tooodles!

2008-05-05T07:48:00.001-07:00
day 1 of gynae posting is a total screw up. its such a pain in my arse. totally demoralised after this china staff nurse called us stupid and weird .come on! the stupid and weird one is none other then urself. bitch

firstly i still cant get over the fact that china people are senseless dumb and stupid and also weird. i'm sorry to those china people who happen to read this. but most of my encounter is..other then a few exceptions.lol ive got nth to comment abt them seriously. they are senseless cuz they speak loudly. who care if this is what u do back in china! but hello!! wake up. you are in singapore now!. they are dumb cuz half the time u speak to them. they dont understand a single word your saying they would go like huh? with that blur cock face. i would get so irritated. omg and their stupid cuz i dont noe why. but who ask that fuck to call me stupid first. so i deem them as stupid too. seriously one chinarian is enough to make me hate all of them. and weird being. they are weird seriosly who dont agree with me. lol

but i still cant get over the fact that china babies are damn cute. and i seriously wanna kidnap them and teach them good manners by not talking too loudly dont spit on floors and shave their armpits when they grow up! and not wear sleeveless in the mrt and holding the handrail abbove their head. flashing a forest to everyone!.

maybe its a custom for them not to shave their armpits hahah. i dont noe. and i wouldnt want to noe. perhapes one day when i am eager to know the answer i would go up to one of them and ask why dont they shave their bush!

okok enough i am getting over heated just by talking aabout chinarians. omg!!! i cant wait for the 5 days to be over. god!! help me!!

lastly, i am so happy that i have faey this posting . ive been like waiting for 3 weeks just to finish those posting so i can see faey like 7 hours a day lol. she is also being frightened witht the word stupid after the encounter. she has permanantly develope a phobia towards the word. lol

enough crapping i'm done complaining

toodles!

2008-05-04T07:55:00.000-07:00
i am so addicted to 2 song. first being torn and the second tatoo. gosh ive been hearing them for the past 2 hours. its so addictive.

went k with fiona and annie today. had alot of fun. whoo~~we were like high-ing to some songs. lol. as we say zi high. lol. after k we followed annie to find her sports shoe. wow. annie is like damn active in sch. she joined so many activities. lol i am so surprised.

btw tried many but failed attempts of taking pictures today. they are all so fugly. too fugly to be shown but i guess fiona and annie will post them.

ive lost the inspiration to blog. it takes time to blog. and when i say take time i seriously mean it. like i have to think hard for at least 1 full min before i can post a line. isint it terrible. the capacity in which my brain can hold info is getting miniature. its being minimise in every way. only the fat are continuing to grow. gosh....!!!!

torn:
nothing's fine
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed
into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late
I'm already torn

toodles.

2008-05-03T00:44:00.001-07:00
obs posting is over, but sadly i missed it, he babies are darn cute !!!!! i love them so much till i wannna steal them hahaha, so darn cute. i hav pictures of my two favourtite hahaha but i shant post them cuz they are mine!!. lol

gng out with f.a.t again tml!! whohooo. at last we meet again!. lol haven seen each other as a whole for a long time, !!. cant wait!! i am so excited.

btw the bags i ordered from the spreee came at last. seriously this time is a damn long wait for the bags. terrible. and the worst part 2 bags are out of stock so.... its terrible. lol a long wait for an unexpected letdown.

i cant wit to get my arse back into sch, but i just recieved a bad news. but i hope i wont get to see that person in school. otherwise. it will be damn weird, i dunno what to do when i meet her. omg!!!! maybe ishould invest in a paper bag to cover my head over with. but maybe not cuz i would be the laughing stock if i do so.

alrights ive got nth more to say

tooodlessss

2008-04-25T20:20:00.001-07:00
at last paeds posting is over. still two more to go. but:( i miss the pple there:(

2008-04-20T06:34:00.000-07:00
just finished a bit of my case study . dont know whats left to do till i see taufiq tml.

went k this afternoon with hf and leng. haha damn funny and high and whoooo fun!. lol . first time fat ddnt go k tgt, lol cuzz annie's down with a bad throat so we asked hf along in the end. but still we had a dmann great time. wow!

made fun of the song hu die xiu lol. the dance is damn funny. lol. leng gonna go learn and teach everyone haha. funnyyy.

attachment resumes tml again! boring. shant talk aout it now! its a total bore.

ok i'm done hf rabbits are cute and i want them!!

toodles!

2008-04-19T06:06:00.000-07:00
at last first week of attachment is over another 3 to go:) cant wait for it to end.

ive got a fucking pissed of story to share about a STAFF nurse in kkh!. i was with faey at 7 eleven during break time . while we were queing at the cashier waiting to pay. at the same time we were talking about this girl from attachment which is a student nurse. she made damn stupid comments all the time and nonsensicle things. then this fucking shit ass eavesdrop our conversation and made remarks, like this!

asshole(mumbling) something about confidentiality, but i didnt hear properly, so i asked to repeaat, then she said dont you know about confidentiality and all, with her dumbass wishful thinking that we were talking about the patient in the ward, then, obviously cause that not the case, i rebutted back!, i wasnt even talking about the patient. then she went on saying confidentiality and patients!. fuck you la! get your fucking facts right before you fucking open your fucking mouth and talk rudely when u are fucking in the wrong!. she spoke damn rudely somemore, !

to you the fucking ass hole! i am a student and also i am a nurse! i dont talk bad about my patients at all. morover i know that as a nurse i have to keep things to myself about patients and i fucking know about confidentiality otherwise i wont be having attachment as i have failed my damn modules!!! i have limitations to what i say okay! and i dont need fucking rude remarks from you! get your fucking facts right before maing a remark! .

then after which i said hey! its a student nurse which i am talking about okay!. and she mumbles something according to faey. saying that i am speaking bad about the relative. from the patient to the relative! fuck you la!. keep such crude remarks to yourself ! i demand an apology from you the next time i see you again!. fuck u ! i am not to be mess around with!. furthermore if u have said nicely, i wouldnt have anything with you! but no! u made many crude remarks !. i dont fucking care if you are fucking many years senior from me!. if you are crude, u are A FUCKING MAGGOT!! YOU DO NOT DESERVE ANY RESPECT FROM ANYONE!.

the worse part. she knew i was gonna continue to scold her back! she hurry paid the cashier money and walked off as fast as possible! fuck you la! u dare to say soemthing! dont you fucking dare run away not repenting!.

i'm done i am gonna complain!

2008-04-16T16:32:00.001-07:00
it is boring!! first two days was totally stoned. did nothing at all the entire day except stone chit chat and stone and more chatting. lol aint it boring. the nurses there didnt allow us to do anything. cant serve medication cant sponge the kiddos neither can we play with them cause most of their parents are around. and they are so clingly and they are forever crying. i cant stand it. feel like stuffing a apple in their mouth then cannot talk and cry!

till yesterday , being our third day of attachment. was the most satisfying day, lol cuzz we got to do many stuff. lol like sponge patient and play with the cute lil baby. lol. yesterday my cubicle was full in the morning, then come midday, it was almost empty, lol left only a patient which was the cte lil baby, and he was discharge yesterday after my day was over. 2 went for operation, 1 went for breakfast, and the other i have no idea where he went. lol! isint it absurd!

today having attachment at 1 doing afternoon shift today, hope it would be not so boring. lol i cant wait to see gracey!!!! lol.

going to timber in the night with lynnie and yulin. gonna see bhumi band play, if i spelled correctly. lol . band memebers most consist of lynnie colleages, which i have seen them quite a number of times already. so ya i cant wait for the pizzza served there. lol. ending attachment at 9. then gonna wash up and rush to city hall to meet yulin and lynnie after 930 i think:). lol have no idea where they playing today. cant remember which timber . cause there is 2 timber!

fiona told me about her wards story. damn gross forever abortion. shit la i am so scared, i'm gonna go her ward during my last week of attachment. .... stress.

okay i'm done

toodles:)

2008-04-14T10:36:00.000-07:00
attachment today, being the very first day dealing with mini adults is terrible, much worse then what i have expected, first thing in the morning i was totally depressed, i thought i was gonna be lonely with no friends in the ward, hahahaha then!! while i was walking into the ward!!!! i saw taufiq!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha he saved my entire attachment. i wont be lonely anymore, lol.

now i shall continue why it is so terrible, first thing in the morning, we were not given any orientation around the hospital, but also the ward, we were like totally lost, the only thing done in the morning was assigning us to our respective cubicles. damn i am like alone in that cubicle, butoh wells, taufiq's cubicle is just next to mine. so ill just pop over and chit chat. lol. then come the worst part. wen i step into my cubicle, the first thing i kenna is can i have a urinal!?!?!?!?! omg la!! i dont even noewhere is the sulce room, lol they in fact do not have one. theirs is called the treatment room!!!! i was like frantically searching for a room named sulce but its nowwhere to be found cuzz of the name, lol. so i took like damn long to search for it. luckily the patient as well as the father was damn nice. they were really understanding.

then the next thing. take pajamas and bed sheet. haha me and taufiq went to find cpboards. but, hahaha we could not find any. cuz they put their stuffs in a metal case that looks like the agv. hahah we didnt dare open it cause we thought it food. hahaha , in the end the nurse was like that metal case, then........ lol.

then come the worst part of the day, the nurses was all so busy, so they assigned me to do an admission for a new client and can only speeek chinese. omg i died. first thing first no orientation of the ward was given to me. secondly i had to orientate the patient about the ward and all. what on earth is this man!!!. lol . then admission for peads is confusing. totally diff from adult. alot of forms. i was totally confused. so i only helped to fill the things i knew. and paste sticky labels. lol left out alot of blank. but. who cares, its not my fault. lol

at last attachment ended with taufiq carrying my cubicle's cute lil boy. his damn cute only 1 plus yrs old. lol. wanted to wait for fiona. but she ended late. and she asked me to go first, and i was damn shagged cuz i didnt sleep last night and i went straight to work. so in the end i took a shuttle home and slept till now. lol i cant sleep again. i guesss this routine gonna be a habit soon. damn i need to change it.

alright i have nothing more to add on. so i shall come back the next time, probably tml or the day after or somewhere this week. lol depending on my mood!!. alrights

toodles:)

attachments

2008-04-13T08:29:00.000-07:00
okay okay.... it starts in less then 12 hours time, to be more exact another 7 hours, gosh the travelling is such a pain, long journey's. but it's okay at least i am meeting fiona tml, so the long journey would not be lonely, furthermore i just charged my ipod, so i can listen to music too, also i have prepared a book to start reading in trains. wow, its like packing or a camping trip. lol

i dont intend to sleep tonight cuz i doubt i can wake up by 430 if i sleep now or maybe at midnight cuz i will be too lazy to sit up from the bed. lol.

watched high school musical 2 what's what on disney just now. lol zac is adorable. lol .

thats practically my day, woke up at 7 plus 8 . lol watched tv , ate dinner and now i am back at the com. currently started watching a new korean drama, it's fantastic, loli makes me dream that i wanna work in a cardiac icu in future. its cool. btw if u guys are interested the show is called new heart. go watch it.

uhooooo.. that pratically sums up my day. off to continue my drama!

toodles

2008-04-12T09:18:00.000-07:00
currently playing wahjong with hf hy and leng online, boring i keep losing, lol.everyone is taking a break , so now here i am blogging.

bought my shoes for work already , after so long, lol. hope it doesnt bite me when i wear it . lol. i shall go bite it first before it bites me.! lol

1 month of burden to travel the very long distance 1 month of being lonely, so totally not looking forward to it. haiyoo

was reading all ahem's past entries the other day, wow i am so impressed, he write such meaningful and nice poems lol, okay, i'm seriosly impressed by his work:) but...

seriously i have nth more to say, so i shall end here:)

toodles

rabbits and twister

2008-04-10T10:09:00.000-07:00

whohoooooo, hf rabbits are parents le. whoooo~~ hf is a grandmother lol. hahaha they are so ugly now lol just saw their pictures all pinkish and black and they look like naked mole rats. lol kim possible, ron stopable and the naked mole rat. lol omg so lame..

hahaha had bbq earlier on, with usuals again at my hse. lol it was rather a boring bbq today, till the end, when we strated playing twister lol , damn funny everyone was like curled up like balls, lol all twsited and in really weird positions. lol. had a great laugh. lol , while we were playing seriously like started to perspire. lol dman hilarious. whoo~~~~ cant wait to play again!
attachment are starting soon i, not looking forward, lol. didnt take any pictures today cuz we were all like shiny and oily and sweaty from all the playing and bbq-ing lol. so it shall be a pictureless post. ive got nth to say!

i wanna get married soon! lol i shall go find a bf first hahahahaha!

okok til then, i shall rant again! cuzz i have nth more to say. lol

toodles:)

moodless

2008-04-08T12:16:00.000-07:00

i miss the days when we are happy.

omg haven been blggin for long, in actual sense i shall say, i have not feeel the urge to blog my life anymore, lol its so meaningless, trust me, there is nothing interesting for u pple to know! lol

nothing much happened, have only been shopping these few days. i hate my life its so meaningless, it only circles around shopping and more shopping, i need something meaningful and some colour lol.

controlled myself from spending any money on shopping today, but in the end, i still spend 50 dollars!!!, seriously i have no idea where did all the donald duck dollars go to, it seem to have disappeared cause i bought nothing at all, but when i was on the way home with fiona, i started to count how the money disappeared, end up hahaha, it was all spent on nonsensicle items, such as food, 20 bucks, which i hardly ate anything, lol and the rest mainly on cabbing, lol its such an expensive ambition to take taxis, it costly and dangerous lol, like wad i experience just now, but oh wells i am damn lazy to type it out, lol. hint hint jam breaking for like almost every 5 mins lol.

okay okay ive thought hard and i found something i did other then shopping, which is PRAWNING , lol together with lynnie dinah and zainal, lol its fun , it has been our weekly routine, lol. we caught many prawns yesterday lol.

on a horrifying other side of my life, attachments are starting again! FUCK ! school have not reopened yet and i am scheduled for another attachment damn it la, the worse part is that we are attached to kk this time for a month, gosh, it bloody far, and its a month damn it a month is good enought to plan a revenge to kill a person. lol , no sense but ohwells, i need to vent my anger, 2 weeks of my life is going to be given to the peads in kk 1 week to the obs for another week and another week to gyne . fuck all of it, worse part nadiah not joining us , she is not posted to attachments, and she have to retain in a sense, but on a lighter note, she claims that she have no night classes, and her days start late and end early, and she only have to study for 3 modules, trust her to crack such a joke at this point of time.

haven been home early for the past holiday , returning in the middle of the night have became a familiar routine. i hate it, i need to love home and start staying home always, but the worst part, i doubt i have the chance to, ive been scheduled to go out everyday for the next few days. damn i feel guilty, i haven been eating my ah ma's food, and she cooks everyday, i feel sorry. SHIT THIS BLOODY LIFE.

its 345am. i need my beauty sleep,

toodles

over!

2008-04-04T11:48:00.000-07:00
hf, me, fiona leng, and gwen.
AT last concert's over, haha, let down a huge burden consisting of stress and anxiety. lol haha sounds funny, but oh wells,

i shall say it was a damn damn hactic day yest, the entire day was really rush, lets recall, first thing in the morning, had to wake up damn early to go eastpoint to get a spag white top for band u, see another waste money item, then, went to have lunch with fio, after which went home, which was actually the only relaxed time of the day, lol.

let me begin with, cab down to vch with fio and hf cuz we realised that the weather was playing a trick on us, had likebig bags small bags to carry there, inside includes annie's birthday presents and surprises clothes band u extra clothes and make up and also miscellaneous . lol when we reach vch , it was a mess, cuzz every other person reach there at the same time, as if the entire sac just reach vch backstage lol. it was cramp and messy, lol wanted to put our things down badly, cuz it was heavy and all. but we just couldnt squeeze in with the rest, so we concede defeat and went to sit on the chair till everyone cleared, lol. haha then we spotted a room, lol it was empty and big and spaceous lol but we saw the sign on the door, conductor and teacher, lol we wanted to remove the sign secretly so we could put our things inside, but we got caught, haha inside joke, lol

so got another space for alumni solely, but in the end we had senior band placing their instrument cases in there, gosh wad a horrifying plight. oh wells, we didnt really bother, then we had to find our juniors for the instrument to practice, another headache, supposedly we had to practice at 330 but in the end i think we started only at 4 or 4 plus, worse still we were like thrown like a rubbish to outside of the hall, at the staircase to practice, it was squashy and stuffy and hot there, it was terrible. another worse thing supposely having rehersals at 4 but mr dee had to eat our time and only let us in at 420, then worse still, our time was 4 to 445 but he ask us out of the place by 440, wtfffff it was so unfair, so we all left reluctantly. ahhh heck, in the end rushed to returned juniors their instrument cuzz it was their turn to rehearse, so we idled arnd vch for quite a long time, before the actual starts,

the best thing of the day we were like talking about someone in the toilet like loudly, who knows this person was in the cubicle, lol, when she came out after we finished talking , our jaws all just drop, hahah inside joke, worse part so could act like nth happened at all, but oh wellls, she deserves it, its all fated, lol

okay backstage was dman squeezzy, after a long wait it was finally our turn, seriously i think we played quite well, except it abba gold was a little blasting, but overall it was very good, lol. learn to appreciate west side only yesterday lol. isint it a little to late. lol but who cares, . my junior is so sweet she bought each and every alumni a bunch of flowers lol it damn pretty, lol love them so much .

after concert we left immediately , as in me and fio, cuzz we needed to rush to town and buy a cake, lol and get ready for annie's surprise, who knows what ahappened yesterday. suddenly all taxis went missing, there were not cabs, we walked the wrong way towards city hall, and we couldnt even call a taxi be it flag one, so byt the time we walk and falg we reac hed city hall mrt, so we decided to take a mrt instead, reached at 930, rushed to get a cake, and realiseD DAMN, ITS PAST 930 AND ALL SHOPS ARE CLOSE, fiona was half dead, so i walked as fast as i could to crystal jade, and luckily it was the only shop in taka left opened, thank god.

so after getting cake, we tot we had like damn alot of time still so we dilli dally changed and walked slowly to cash studio, haha. haha then halfway we realise shit we are late again lol, so walked damn fast to cash again cuz we still had to decor the place and blow 10 ballons lol, in the end annie was late so we had time to finish everything. lol. managed to surprise her. we didnt expect it, lol. but she was surprised. lol. sang happy borthday and gave hugs and kissed, lol sorry minus the kissed, then we started our usuals, k-ing. lol its our pastime, our lao di fang(old hang-out). lol so cabbed home, annie stayed at fiona place while i went home. snores and sleep lol,

gah ive talked too much, wait up guys and tune in to more interesting story of mine, lol

loves' chokky
toodles

concert

2008-04-02T09:47:00.001-07:00
in another half a day concert rehersals are starting. lol also its annie's birthday. lol concerts are also at night on the same day. weird.

lol so joined alumni so there i am playing in vch tml in sac band concert. lol we will be plying two pieces, west side stor and abba gold. boring, lol

damn i cut my thumb yesterday. really deep, trust me, its damn deep, it bled profusely for 30 mins, before the bleeding stopped awhile, today i bathe again, it started to bleed. gosh imagine how bad it is. damnn bad, ubber painful, i totally cant msg with my thumb its totally affected, i am so stress, wad if tml i cant press my trigger, omg omg the world will drop, lol ill be so embarassed if i play the wrong note, haix..

school hols are gonna be over soon, but i haven finish painting my room, lol i plan to stay home the whole of next week to paint dutifully, lol sounds wrong though, lol. but heck.

life sucks my finger hurts terribally, omg i cant wait for the surprise tml for annie. lol

whohoooooo. yippie, i played mj yesterday, but only for awhile, at least weve teached hf how to play, wow, omg that means we found a new kaki to play thus we can play and play and play in future, lol my tai tai dream is gonna be fufilled soon. lol the first step into a tai tais life ol. mj everyday lol

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIE. !!I CANT WAIT TO SEE U TML

moody

2008-03-29T04:37:00.000-07:00
today hasnt been a very good day for me. lol well, not in bad things happen aspect, but instead i just didnt feel good today. felt damn moody, like the 'i dont feel like talking feeling' worst part, i chose a full suit of black clothes. had band in the morning. wasnt too bad improved damn alot compared to previous practices, made me rather happy. the only happy thing,

after band went bugis with joey nana hf and gwen, but only i had change from an all black suit to half black cuz it wwas so hot and i was wearing blouse, also at the asme time it was affecting my mmooo.d so i changed into a happier colour, lol orangy pinkish, lol. made me feel a little better . so went bugis. had lunch at swensons. damn fulfilling but sinful lunch cuz we had a giant earthwauke and we could hardly finish it, cuz we had our own portions of food before that, lol

intended to get into street after which, but joey left first, so we send her off and went to the street, was damn crowded, fiona and hf bought boyfriend shirts, lo. i bought a pair of shoes. i wanted badly another pair but they didnt had my size anymore, i was damn devastated. so it killed my day, lol. after that, follwed fiona and hf to buy white blouse,

i am so irritated with the bands uniform it killing me la, i have none of the clothes that needed to be worn on concert day, and i cant find any working pants that suit me, it all looks like kanna sai on me, so in the end i didnt buy any, i am damn sad, if this goes on i doubt i will be attending the concert, cuz i dont wanna stress over such a small matter.

i need to lose 30 kg, i wanna be anorexic

i am gonna find a model so i can look up to her, that way it helps me slim down faster. gyming next week is defintely a must i must lose at least some weight before schoool starts.

bored:(

2008-03-27T07:32:00.001-07:00
boring! i am so damn bored, i have nth to do! probably thats a punishment for playing the entire day yesterday so i am banished form enjoying myself for today, lol

i am going k tml with usuals and a few more others . lol not too sure though. tml i shall see them then i shall report tml if i have the ability to blog lol

so probably since i have nth much to say today, i shall talk about the thing i have missed most during these few moths. lol maybe not months and months
but at least i shall say at least 2 to 3 months. lol

i haven seen him for a long long time. ive started to miss him ever since 123456789 million yrs. lol ok i am joking i wasnt even born. lol. seeing macdonalds makes me yern to see him badly. lol. see the connections of whyi am so depressed, cuzz macdonalds is everywhere every where u go u see macdonalds. i am so eager to pull down macdonalds lol. so i wont think of seeing him. lol ive complained nearly everyday to fiona or maybe i shall say whenever i see her. that i want tosee him today hahha. but i can slowly dream cuz the day nv come. lol

oh wells. i have learn to face it . hahaha it nv works. lol so i shall just keep it to myself hahaha

concerts coming up ive got nth to wear still. lol its a waste of money to buy expensive stuff just for concert and we are going to apeear like only i shall say 10 mins infront of audience. lol waste of time money and efforts.

ok ive said enough toodles people i am off to do some more stuffs. lol back to my boring life

back

2008-03-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

hahah what a fruitful day today!!

after like reading fiona's blog i have like entirely no mood to talk about our trip cuz its written black and white there already. hahaha

picture are up too at her blog. hahaha

it seems like i am talking to myself hahaha. cuzz no one noes about my blog currently except for me and fiona and liwen hahaha. what a sad sad situation lol!

went to the beach had lots of fun had a ride at chairlift or whatever it is called.

hahah saw something damn damn funny at fiona's blog lol must tell everyone here lol, but the worst things no one noes about this place, haha so i am prolly like talking to myself and reminding fiona about her work of art. hahaha

okok need to quote and put reference otherwise she might sue me for plagerism hahaha.

fiona's blog:"then decided to play polka" (2008)lol . http://lifestartsanew.blogspot.com/ for referencing lol.

by the way just mention something she didnt mention lol. we had like sakae buffetlunch. hahaha cuz we didnt take the cable car. so for a change we went to have a feast. haha but in the end it didnt even turn out a feast , but instead . haha what a letdown. it was horrible. we had like only miserabily few plates of sushi and we were like damn damn full. lol waste of money. lol

went k in the evening. see i told u people what a fruitful day. i spend an entire day out for the longest time ever in a few months. hahaha

ok the best part of the day. i didnt tan and they tanned. but i got sun burnt instead of them. omg omg omg!!!! my worst nightmare is to turn into a bangala. i dont wish to be black!!! okay okay enough of racism. sorry bangala, but u know i dont mean it :) a beautiful smily for u people!

btw i cut my hair people and dyed it black hahaha. and i accidentally made a mistake i wanted a side frindge but short in the end . it turned out to be bangs. omg i look like a ball!! hahah but oh wells it irreversible have to only patiently wait for my hair to grow now. lol

btw i will be following fiona to hairdressers place tml. cuzz she gonna highlight her bootiful hair. which once moi highlighted to make it bootilicious before haha. now she is destroying my work of art and gonna re-do it. lol i'm sad. lol. but oh wells on a lighter note the hairdresser is selling my favourtie pieces of art lol. old cottage classic furnitures omg omg omg. its so bootiful. and tml i am gonna go over to choose some furnitures like a bed frame a dressing table a chest a side bed drawer and also hopefully i can find a bookshelve. whoohoo guys wish me best of luck . lol

anyway haah that day i dug my shelves under my study table. and guess what i found! an antique i found my game boy colour and game boy sp lo. now i found the charger too.. hahaha i am gonna revive it and start playing hahah.. i am charging it now. lol haha gave me a fright just now cuz i charge it for so long and the screen doesnt seem to appear. till now! it did!! hahah i am so happy. wad a happy day today hahaha.prolly i can bring it over to the hairdressers house then i can play mario which i have been craving for ever since i bought my psp. lol kill time. lol

ok i think ive talked too much today. haha i shall get some rest lol i'm kidding i claim to be sleepy but omg i am so awake now. lol but my fat fingers are tired so let them have a short rest.

love, chokky

toodles=)

p.s. dont mind the typo and the fullstops and commas lol i am too lazy!

SENTOSA

2008-03-25T11:08:00.000-07:00
TML WE'RE GOING SENTOSA. LOL

WHAT A LOVELY DATE. HOPE IT WILL BE FUN RIGHT?!

haha . most prob tanning, but u people will definitely find my under a coconut tree. which will be my temporory shade. otherwise a big big umbrella would do the trick, if i can even find one. hope there will be no one on the beach at all. hahaha the place to ourselves that way we can enjoy without looking here and theere for people, haha

time check 2.15 , fiona went offline without even telling me! horrible, i am so bored right now, played wahjong with nana actually shld be her mother hahaha, boring then she went off cuzz she said 5 secs is too stressful, lol . so i continued playiong big 2 instead lol

now she is back online lol. . she claims she cant call me . so she came online specially to tell me that i nv pick up the fone haha. funny!

okay boring nth to say anymore.

toodles

painting

2008-03-24T10:25:00.000-07:00
tried painting my house today wad probably, a disaster. lol it sucked. i thought it was simple, but as simple as it seems, it totally sucked, it so difficult, firstly moving furniture was a headache,then come pasting musking(is it how it is spelled) tape all around the cupboard and doors was another extrem energy taker. and also lastly laying of newspaper before i can start to paint. just by doing those it tooked me nearly half a day, furniture wasnt a headache but the pasting of tape was horrible, i also took the curtains down and threw them away gosh.

okay so as how those painters say at the diy shop, had to white wash the entire place first cuz my previous colour was blue and new colour is pink so to bring out it optimum best colour had to white wash.

so after layering newspaper and tape all over, i started to white wash the place. it was a total mess!! it was damn tiring. i had to like literally paint 3coats before the walls turn white as in still a little tinted blue on it. horrifyling, after like white washing the place another 6 hours i have yet to finish the room, and still have at least half a room to go..!! omg. i wanna give up, but oh wells holidays are boring. everyone seem packed with stuff to do , such as gng out and doing others but, i have nothing! omg. lol. so dont give up chokky continue painting your blooody room!

not forgetting the total mess of getting pant all over your body hands feet arms neck and even hair!!!, omg its a nightmare in fact lol

its late i cant sleep. time check 1.36 am . lol still rather early infact , but i am totally awake!. help me someone! lol

lazy to continue lol

toodles

2008-03-23T12:34:00.000-07:00
still i haveno idea how this blogger thing work . lol i know i am outdated. pple are using whatever" higher tech" blog but i am still clueless about this thing. lol tagboard or comment box is still undone. and everything lol. it looks RED. IT SO HOT !! LOL

anew.

2008-03-21T10:22:00.000-07:00
Okay peeps, i have start all over again and decided to create a new blog. cuzz the previous blog url is like chokkystory, after awhile found that actually it sounds so gross and ah-lianish. lol. so here i am people, i decided to start bloggin again cuzz i have nothing to do recently, at least blogging everyday takes up around 10 mins of my life.

Life recently have been rather meaningless and boring to me. but people not meaninginless in suicidal event thing. but instead, i shall say there is no colours in my life anymore, lol, i used to be colourful like wad fiona and annie said, i always bring colours to their life, cuzz i am always colourful, but recently ive been rather attracted to black, or shall i say have already became black. i remembered recently talking to fiona and told her that i wore almost all black when i went out the other day, and just a few days back again, when i was about to go to the dentist, i actually wore all black. black shirt, black pants, black bag, black slippers.

The funny part was, in the afternooon i went to find lynnie at academy of rock, she told me yulin said she didnt like pple in black and think they are losers, cuzz they look like ninjas, hahah lynnie and me were like laughing damn loudly la, then i realise i was all black haha. then i turn to lynnie then she after which realise it too, then we were saying all black is nice and all, at least we didnt have that black stocking like thing on our head,otherwise we would really look like ninjas, lol.

Good friday's today, haven been to church for a long time. when i say long time i really do mean it. the last time i went to church was like a few yrs back. ever since confirmation i have not step into church. i needto motivation to get my heart and soul to get my ass back to church, i have to be holy be holy be holy.

ive been attracted to a man recently, and also found out recently he has the same name as my dentist haha. lol hahah. getting a little overly excited. feel like a stalker hahaha. lets see. ive found his blog his friendster wad else, haha nothing else, but still...lol

i have to much to say hahaha gosh i am too talkative. i need to talk less. lol

BTW, i have removed my braces!!!. got my retainers, they are like worse then braces, they are extremly uncomfortable and all, such as, it affects my speech, it affects the movememnt of my toungue, it causes my mouth to salivate alot, and when i eat i have to remove it, and wash it and wash it and put it back on again. omg can stand it. the worse part, my mum calls my retainers dentures, irritating, on purpose somemore, she says it looks damn gross just like dentures. such a mean shit lol.

ok i think i shall stop i seriously have too much to say cuzz i am too bored. shall continue some other day lol

loves,
toodles

2008-03-21T10:20:00.001-07:00
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